Hi @Shaz51 

And thanks - I can talk about things after they have happened - and the dead possum is a funny story now - but my daughter - yeah - I think that was the tough part.

I let her know that my feelings had been hurt but refused to tell her what she had said - knowing her this would have led to more dissension - as it was - after criticizing me for months she withdrew for months - there are times when her grumps are something I let her sulk about knowing it bothers no one but her - but when I was most unwell and not telling her much at all it became too much. I do have a good psychologist though and worked though it - my daughter and I are texting now at least.

I talked with this psychologist for months before I opened up to her about my son - there are things I never tell anyone - I did tell her some things - and once said I realised they meant very little now - we can only accept the past - there is no need to feel guilt especially when we have no control over what happened - like the choices we had to make. So I have let that go - and I do feel better about it all even though I came to terms with it in the past - it's easier now

So last year is all over now and life keeps going on - as it must 

I am so sorry you are still waiting for a kidney transplant - that is really tough for you - waiting for so long with so little kidney function. Do you have a rare tissue type or something? I have been an organ donor for years - I guess I'm too old now but I still have the card with me all the time. I wish you the best with that.

All the best my sweet and thoughtful friend - you are worth your weight in gold

Mumma Bear

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