Yes @utopia - it does help to talk about the pain - it has been worse lately - and it's weeks until I see the pain specialist

I think she has a problem with me because I ask difficult to answer questions - and I don't just sit there and look blank like some elderly people - the place where I go is where there are a number of outpatient clinic for elderly people - I started going there when I was 54 which seems so young now - and a lot of the people in the waiting room sit and stare into space - and I have tried talking to them and some respond - glad to chat - others seem lost and alone and I wonder about their lives

So I have the idea my specialist thinks I am a bit too clever and the reality is that I am a bit too clever - I investigated my own condition years ago and know a lot about the pharmacology and anatomy and all sorts of facts about chronic pain - and in reality - most people don't

So all I expect when I see her is that she will keep things as they are - and I built in my own back-up by cutting back on my medication myself - but I want an addition - something she took out - and she hasn't given me a reason that makes any sense

But here's something I hear from people - not my team btw - but how often have I been told that the medication causes the pain!!!!! This is stupid - the pain was there first - and if I cut the medication back - it will hurt because the pain comes back  - not because the medication causes that

Anyway - I am seeing my doctor today for a medicare plan to see my psychologist  - for some reason that my doctor thinks is silly I can't see him about anything else today - which has to be ster-range - but how much sense can Medicare made anyway

Emotional pain is far worse than physical pain - they can treat physical pain in some ways - but emotional pain is so much worse and corrodes us and brings us down so far

They say time heals all wounds but I have noticed that there are some wounds that never heal - my mother died in her very old age very wounded

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