Still awake. Can't sleep. My mind is so full. I'm tired, but awake. I feel safer in hospital. But I'm worried these feelings just won't go away. That ever little stress. Every interaction with Centrelink & Workcover will just keep pushing me further into darkness.
I've looked up Reactive Depression. It generally only lasts 6 months. It's been over 2 & a 1/2 years already. Because the trigger hasn't been removed. And it looks like it's going to be years and years before we even get to court. How am I meant to last that long. Other than my PTSD & panic attacks - my mental health is worse. My depression has never been this bad. Only had SI last year until recently. It's all just getting worse. And the fear of never getting better.
This is just a big whinge.