Hi Utopia

Many thanks for all you are doing for us - the daily diary and sharing is realistically the ultimate in generous support. I loved the chocolate dessert pic - and I hope that every single mouthful brought you pleasure. We all need lovely things and treats in our lives. 

Youa re incredibly brave and have I believe made it through the hard yards of withdrawal from self medication. An incredible accomplishment to date. Just continue to enjoy the cigs in the courtyard as you like.

Enjoy the chance to use  prn's  and actually recognise and express emotions - it is a very hard journey to learn to self soothe. 

I hear and relate to the pain in your words.

It is also so important to know that you are cared for and heard by the people on this forum. I cannot feel so supported any where else.

And above all else - right now - be kind to you

Lotsa luv

Bast