Goodonyer @utopia - for contradicting the psychiatrist - it took me longer to learn that one but once I said my piece and the therapist told me she had no way of knowing how what she said impacted the client - I had that big-win feeling too

And that was in February - and she has moved interstate - but I haven't seen anyone since - like we know best ourselves what's what in our head - and you seem to have your ideas straight even if the world collides with you - often right now.

What you wrote about the manic person yakking away - I can tell you that if my back pain is bad I can hardly stand being near someone else - if someone sits next to me at the doctors clinic I have to get up and walk around and if it is crowded I have to speak to the nurse so I can lie down in the recovery room - ah - I am a chatty person - I only chat if the other person wants to chat but I get on with people - but if my back aches I find my personal space is suddenly much bigger - I don't want anyone in my space

Lucky I live alone - right

I know the battle you are having with your previous employers is really hard and wearing you down - but for ten years after my son died I did my bit with DHS and the Juvenile Justice System and the Task Force into Youth Suicide - and all of this wore me down - but after 10 years I felt I had done enough - though I have checked on the situation from time to time since - I don't need to get involved

So only you really know yourself - but I think you are courageous doing what you are doing

I hope you sleep well tonight too

Lots more hugs and no manic chatting

Dec