Hi @Maggie .... ❤️

I am proud of you too, taking this plunge and sharing your innermost struggles .... it's no small thing.  

Finding a place to be able to say what happened to you, without needing to mention specifics, is an empowerment ... I hope you feel that.  I am so, so sorry for the terrible suffering you have encountered, and personally I find the development of DID an amazing response of the human spirit to overcome the evil that has befallen it, and to survive .... in defiance to be able to move beyond the abuse.

I have been enjoying getting to know you too @Maggie.  Your sensitive, compassionate, caring nature is, as @Teej said, very evident.  

As a part of trying to understand what has happened to my WH, I have come across the study of sub-personalities ... this model is called Internal Family Systems .... and the idea that we all have an inner family of sub-personalities who work together to express and guide our "whole" is something I find comforting .... an understandable explanation of all our different facets.

I am assuming you have found other threads here pertaining to the challenges of living with DID ....and other forumites with that shared existence happening for them too ?

You have mentioned your fur-baby before .... and I am delighted that they are in your life.  Your garden is clearly another source of joy for you.

Hugs and hugs @Maggie ..... I hope this thread helps you to feel more settled in ....

💜💐💕🤗