Thanks @Maggie.

Starting couple counselling, where I can't talk about what our issues are in front of WH (hubby) cos he has delusional thinking and is emotionally abusive when triggered .... having to walk on eggshells and work out how to let the counsellor know without being able to speak out.  

It's going to be traumatic in the moment, but I have been led to believe this is our way forward ... so have to just step out and see what happens ..... leap of faith ....

💜