Its hard @Appleblossom because i think he is cheating on mum. So thats always on my mind. I think he is in the closet about his sexuality. I think mum has explained most of my situation to him though. So that helps. He only just got home because the flight is delayed. Maybe speak at depth tomorrow about it all.

Hey @Sam3 @Shaz51 @TAB to you as well

I am also a bit sad ab9ut kissing out on the poland thing, because i was looking forward to meeting my friend again. She was really quirky and cute. We got along really well. We are zoeaking on facebook a lot since last year but this is what it is and how it has to be. It is simply too much to try and organise in a short space, especially finding a job and place to live. I dont regret my decision. I just feel a bit sad is all.