Hi @Sophia1  hoping you ended up getting some restful sleep.  

I don't think there's anything wrong with long posts, especially on a thread you started yourself.  If we can't say what we need to on the forums then there's a serious problem.  They are meant to be an outlet and source of support for all who participate no matter how different we can be.  I have to admit avoiding certain threads because of a certain person, but in nearly 5 years they are the only person I've fallen out with.  And I believe in 'live and let live', no point in continuing dialogue if it's negative.  You have the right to be completely yourself here on the forums.