Thank you @Zoe7
yes you are quite right..
I like the grounding of my avatar.. A strong sense of belonging to a family line..
had reaffirmation of definite rejection from my ageing mum. Today ...I understand the ageing process and her fears..self preservation..
still hurts though..so am feeling that pain today..probably why I jumped at the lightheartedness and the Do I or don't I lighten up the avatar which of course is a representation of me..
so after saying all of that..you helped me realise that yes I want and need the consistency...phew. Our minds !
thank you
so many of us not sleeping ..feeling emotional at present..
can we blame the moon again..I rather like the moon so need to find something else ..