Am back over here muttering to myself...

I seem to struggle tagging others when talking about my own issues..

I am better at listening to others and offering support..

@eudemonism you astutely picked this up about me quite some time ago..

I think I was very sensitive at the time...what is new lately?   

I recognise this in myself now..

This is a parallel of how I have survived...worked..brought up two sons..

separated my mind struggles from day to day living....

very successfully....very few people knew..only a few recently..

takes its toll...have to learn to like who you really are in order to be able to be true to self..

my acute recovery stage ..medication weaned..pain manageable..

some confusion..some agitation ..some tears..

I don't think that it has sunk in yet that op has happened....tumour. (I believe unresolved grief wrapped itself around two sections of spine...talk about not letting go..

now I realise. Have next MRI in early August then see neurosugeon following day..then if all ok..rehab starts..then 6 mth  1 year..3 years..

might be back..

have contract on house...full amount advertised fotr..subject to sale of their million dollar property interstellar..she has been headhunter for uni position here..principal of real eate over there believes will easily sell prime 30 acre property an hour from city..

so we might now have 2 months to find a place to rent while new home bein built..

...I should be ecstatic....a few maybes in all of that..

a lot of hard work in all of that..

I have 4 more weeks in acute recovery phase?.

I think that I shall just go to sleep if can

goognight self..