My last post was written with a very weary...drained state of mind...a body in great pain....a mood of high and low emotion..

In regard to my mention of the value of the property owned by the people who want to buy ours....I was not in any way trying to inflate my ego with materialistic values...In hindsight I should not have mentioned the amount.. 

My intent was to emphasise given the value of theirs...there is a stronger chance of settlement going ahead...they might be in a position to still buy ours if their's is not sold by settlement date of two months time requested by them...Also she has been head hunted for a position at the University here which means that they will more than likely be coming here...There property interstate is 30 acres and equestrian....Our property is in a different state...however in an equestrian area near a race course...only 5 acres....All of this being a deciding factor in accepting an offer subject to sale...

It has been a long draining time that the house has been on the market...trying to keep everything pristine ready for people to book appointments to have a look....all of this whilst I have been very unwell..in and out of different hospitals...family sagas...crises and my own state of mind...news of tumour following up with surgery and now in recovery stage....follow ups to continue to make sure does not come back...

Yes we have worked hard to own property....not overly materialistic...not into having latest technology or changing furniture etc at the drop of a pin...

Aside from all of that...mental unwellness is very hard to deal with...the symptoms ..struggles and suffering when dejected by those who are meant to love you....hiding self from the real world so as not to be further judged...learning of own "family member" missing and seriously ill....unable to contact..having to wait to hear....receiving very concerning messages ..hearing of slept on street and picked up by police...not knowing at any given time life situation...beyond words...

there are many different kinds of pain as a result of mental unwellness and external life crises...

I do not measure my pain against others....

I have strong empathy for fellow sufferers...particularly those with long term suffering...circumstances affecting their daily living...family issues....

Perhaps in hindsight I should not have written about the subject for sale conditions...

I was not thinking clearly at the time...

I do not want to upset anyone on these forums at any given time....I want to support...

Apologies for others reading the above response...If necessary I shall request removal of the post..

I am no better a person for living in  a house that is owned...

I am upset now that I came across that way...

I will request removal of the post...