Thank you sharing your post. I had to get some things out of my head because I feel so desperate to get it out. I've through a lot as many of us have. Since childhood I've suffered from depression. I've witnessed abuse as a child. I was in juvenile hall, group homes and a loving couple took me in. I then got heaviliy in drugs, alcohol, sex. I quit drinking 26 years ago and started on my journey of healing since then. I was in an abusive marriage. My ex divorced me after 30 years of marriage. I've had breast cancer been diagnosed with Bipolar 2. I've always been compassionate to others and caring. I was a good friend and you could count on me. Fast forward to today it is really hitting me hard that I need self compassion. I need to treat myself as I would a friend. Recently my new job in helping others with mental illlness I've been a scapegoat I feel with the HR manager because they are overwhelmed and stressed. I have asked questions and ask for what I need and I've been talked down to several times making me feel like a peice of nothing, like I don't matter. I'm 56 years old and I know now I deserve better. I'm not a victim. I'm a survivor. I'm trying to feel better about myself. I continue going to support groups, counseling trying to learn a way to peace and joy. I just had to post this outloud to remind myself that "I matter" and I am strong and I have fought and worked very hard. Now it's time to really focus on self compassion. If it wasn't for my precious dog Luke I feel like I would just check out. Life's been hard but I'm finding ways to fight back. Hoping to get some supportful and empowering feedback. I know there's a lot of us out there suffering trying to find our way. Love to you all. Lynn