The upside of WH being away is that you do have the heartspace (and space) for a time to be able to paint - the downside is definitely that you know the reality when he is back. I know I couldn't paint under those circumstsances, so I can only imagine how hard it is for you to find both the physical and heart/head space to be able to paint - especially using oils. Acrylics are easier - they dry quickly and the painting can be moved or stored for a time until I am able to get back to it. ...and I can't paint in 'chaos' - either in my head or in a room that is not tidy and organised - a bit OCD myself but more the environment has to be in the background (near to invisible) whilst the painting is prominent, therefore any mess or clutter takes my focus away from the painting - I'm sure you get exactly what I mean 

Having the heart motivation @Faith-and-Hope is certainly a great starting point to navigating your way towards a solution when WH gets back - as is your strength and resilience....

Here with you @Faith-and-Hope... to walk alongside or to hold your hand when needed...

Zoe