I love the little betweeny space too @CheerBear - our little rainbow footpath where everything is ok!!!

I am still struggling but had a chat today on helpline that really helped - sometimes it is a matter of taking my mind off things for long enough to get through the next minute, hour, day!

I am extremely tired tonight and still feeling really unwell. The biggest issue is if I go to sleep too early then I have nightmares - but if I go too late I feel too sick/out-of-it to fight off the flashbacks before sleep. It is a very, very fine balance that I have not even nearly got a handle on yet.... so party planning may be on the agenda for tonight - but I will need lots of help and encouragement