The nightmares used to be pretty much the same every night @Owlunar Now they are not as 'violent' but more than one 'event' is being mixed together. It is very 'confusing' and leaves me with a 'different' kind of fear. I can't go into details here but let's say I am 'reliving' things in a different way - and it makes the daytime hard as well as my mind seems really confused for some time afterwards.

I have been having similar nightmares for most of my life - that is one of the reasons I don't like to sleep. I used to be able to get through them by working long hours and as such not having much time to be asleep. Now that I am not working (and am so physically unwell) there is far too much time to 'think' and that has definitely had a huge affect on my MI. I know that I was burning out in my job anyway with the amount I used to do - and it definitely was not sustainable - this is likely why I am still so unwell nearly a year later- but what I used to do did keep me from having to deal with all my 'issues'. I was literally numb to feelings for so long - and I really do wish I was back there again so I wouldn't be feeling so much now.