My 'story' is very complicated CB and I certainly could not share most of it here - just like you  I haven't even shared some of it with anyone - not my gp, psychologist or pdoc - it is just too hard. I used to write a lot but haven't even written about some of it - that should pretty much sum up how very hard it is to 'come to terms with' myself. In a way - I don't believe most of it - so why would I even begin to imagine anyone else would @CheerBear 

There certainly are bits and pieces throughout the forum but they are only the things I can share - as hard as that has been. So I totally get there are just some things that we need to keep to ourselves - for whatever reason CB