O M G slightly freaking out

boyfriend is on call( works in medical field) and has been called in and been there for 5 hours.
I am going crazy. I need a lift to my pharmacy for my meds which is not looking likely now. I can't leave the house because I don't have keys to open the dead lock.

Lastly that dark part of my mind is whispering bad thoughts to me. my ex husbands use to leave me on NYE and cheat on me. Those thoughts are creeping into my head even though I know he is at work.

Guess I'll make myself a hazelnut coffee with hazelnut liquor