Thanks @Former-Member. 
@Former-Member BIG HURTING!!!! How does anyone live with no purpose? How does anyone live knowing that no one wants them either personally or professionally? How does anyone live when the source of meaning and support has become the source of rejection, abandonment, re-traumatization and the strong message that nothing you do is of value. How does anyone live with that @Former-Member??? Why won't anyone talk it through with me???
I haven't made the icecream cake yet because it dawned on me that in order to do that, I need space in my freezer to put it! I plan to do it when I've eaten enough food out of my freezer to create space. 
And nope, haven't heard the end of Room on the Broom yet. @CheerBear and I have decided that you have discovered the ultimate solution to sleep issues. 