Whether you can recognise it or not @Phoenix_Rising you matter to us here. I understand you need that connection IRL and need to be able to talk talk to someone but if you were not around the forum you would be very much missed. Do not underestimate how much you would be missed because it would be - for some of us - like losing a friend. I know you do not do friends but even not-friends can be missed when they are not around.
Here sitting on my rock stack and listening little turtle.