I understand that you are presently needing things to happen straight away - andtalking to TTT is not possibly - and although you cannot discuss exactly what has happened- you can continue to write how you feel about it - if that is all you have for now then that is what you can do.
and as @Former-Member said @Phoenix_Rising - you are stuck with us on here - because we do care and because you do matter to us.
Keep 'talking' here - we are listening and know it is super, super hard for you to not be able to talk talk to anyone