Hey @Phoenix_Rising - you've lived up to your name and have risen from the ashes for now. In your absence from the Forum, you have been in the thoughts of many of your friends. I hope that it has gone some way in comforting you. It's been a huge relief to know that you're still around.
You matter. I am so sorry that you are finding life this difficult. It shouldn't be. I hope it will get easier and happier for you. Thinking how awesome it is that you can stand on your head.