Just dropping in to say hello @WIP 

Hope I am not interrupting, but I can relate to a lot of what you post about, except I am more a night person.  It has been a huge thing for me to be able to settle by taking meds around 9 ish and getting regular sleep, and most importantly of all, not panicking that I will sleep in and miss things, it took a long time before I could undo some of my hypervigilance and let go and trust in my own rhythm.  Really, years of working at it.  I can also relate to the feeling of working all day just to keep my head above water.

I am a Melb person, so in lockdown.  My saving has been doing different projects in the home, but somehow I had to go through a very Long Dark Night of the Soul to manage any respite and peace.  Getting on. Old Grey Mare now ... lol

Hugs.