My dear @Snowie , I'm sorry to hear it is everywhere at the moment. So much uncertainty can be so debilitating. 

I know how much you do to hang in there, and sometimes, when it's just too much, others need to carry us through. Do you feel you are at this point yet? Or does duty mean you have to stay safe?

I 'feel' what you are experiencing. It brings back memories when I was in a similar place of such intense uncertainty. 

We are sitting with you and holding your hand.