Hey @Former-Member, Can I please have a tiny turtle hug to tide me over the weekend? I am still super struggling with the fear-of-abandonment feelings. It's like my brain oscillates between huge relief that I found M and total terror that M will disappear. It's super hard right now. Lunar can I tell you something? You know how my muddle with Fred was a giant muddle? Yeah, well even so, I super miss him. I super miss the constancy and stability. He told me so many times that he was the only one who would stay, and thus far he has been right. I am so very very glad that I found M...and yet I am so very very scared of losing her again.

Good night Forum Land.