@Owlunar The way I feel IS sound. Let's look at the evidence:

I have had four restraining orders taken out against me.

I have been thrown out of two churches.

I have had several other people threaten legal action if I don't keep away from them.

I've had multiple psychologists terminate contact with me, including therapist-take-seven who told Victims Services she was traumatised from working with me.

I've had a psychiatrist refuse to even meet with me after reading the details of my muddle.

And so the list goes on...and on...and on...

People like me until they get to know me, and then once they get to know me, they don't like me anymore. Thus I have aquaintances (e.g. at my volunteering gig), but that is the extent of my real-life face-to-face social connections. There are seven-and-a-half billion people on this planet and yet not a single one who wants to spend time with me here in the real world. That is not faulty thinking. That is not "the illness talking." That is my objective reality.

I'm sorry that I sound grumpy (I can hear that I do). Thank you for being here on the ocean today @Owlunar