Good morning in the nest,

I went to bed last night reflecting on the day I'd had. It was a really good day and I tried to figure out how and why, so I could do more of it. I think what happened was that I listened to the warning alarm that 'write everything that has happened in an email' had on it, and instead sent an email that said I wasn't going to do that without support as it wouldn't be good for me. Then I switched off from it all. I think in doing that I put a boundary in place. If my CM's have done what they should have, it should all be on record anyway. The housing organisation have my experience on an audio file interview if they really want to know. I just want out of here, not to keep rehashing what's happened and getting nowehere, so there's no need for me to go over it all again for someone else's convenience. I think I'm going to hold on to that idea for a while.

I gave myself the day off from it all yesterday, and the effect was that I felt like I'd taken a holiday. I really don't cope with being stuck and feeling like I am not doing everything I can to unstick myself, but maybe sometimes things are like quicksand, in that the more I fight it the more I sink. There is stuff happening now thanks to the work I did on Monday, so I haven't really stopped fighting, but yesterday I stopped flailing about frantically trying to get out and instead just stopped and rested. It felt so good.

Yesterday gave me hope that once this is all sorted, maybe I will be ok, because without the stress of the big stuff, I am ok. I'm fairly sure this has all been said to me about 65 million times (by people here too), but I felt it yesterday.

So with that, I am off to start the day. Nothing scary happening today either, so I'll try to remember these words as I go about the day.

Hope it's a good day for everyone 💗😊