@Former-Member I don't know if those feelings ever go away - we just learn to live with them a littl better! I have exactly the same feelings and every day is a struggle to keep going. I don't have kids but my fur babies are the centre of my universe. As long as they are fed and happy then that is all that matters. 

I had to wait many months to see a psychiatrist and we are all sure that this wait time contributed greatly to how ill I am now. It wasn't just my mental health that suffered but along with that came physical illnesses and ongoing health issues. Ine fed off the other and the result has been I have been physically and emotionally very unwell for some time now - and it will be a very, very long road back if I can continue to bare it! 

I definitely do not have any answers (for any of us) but knowing that we can talk and be heard here is the first step in a long battle to be heard and to be helped.