Oopsy, I used a bad word in my post. Here's take two. I fixed it @Former-Member. Good job me.

Well today just got more tricky than it was!!!! (A) and I had scheduled a session for 8am. (A) called at ten past eight just as I was about to email her to see where she was. Guess what? SHE HAD FORGOTTEN THAT SHE HAD TOLD ME I WASN'T WELCOME IN THE OFFICE AND THAT FUTURE SESSIONS WOULD HAVE TO BE VIA PHONE!!!!!!!!!!! She was sitting in her office wondering where I was. Seriously? I mean SERIOUSLY????? Apparently I cause so much chaos in the office she can't have me there, AND THEN SHE FORGETS THAT SHE HAD BANNED ME FROM THE OFFICE. Really???????????????As it turned out, that was the least bad part of the session and I spent most of it rocking, engaging in SH and screaming into my pillow.

My turtle whisperer wants me to stay connected with (A) because of the fact that my turtle whisperer knows she can't be in my world long term. The plan is I will still see (A) at least a bit, until we find someone who can commit to working with me long term. However, after what happened this morning, methinks my turtle whisperer and I will be re-visiting this plan tomorrow.

I've gone from travelling ok through a tricky anniversary day to now being about to go and hide in my bed. Seriously, the number of poorly skilled mental health professionals out there is terrifying!