@Former-Member I think I will climb aboard your island for a little while. My brain and my shell are super flooded. I was doing fine today until the call with (A). How can a psychologist be so amazingly and unbelievably clueless???? My whole being hurts. Why oh why oh why can't I just settle with my turtle whisperer and work with her long-term. How can the Universe be so cruel that I find this one in a billion person who I can actually connect with...and she can't commit to working with me. How can this be? I feel utterly utterly utterly hopeless. The experience with (A) this morning has super reinforced all my terror around shopping for therapist-take-thirteen. You can put a positive spin on it as much as you like, but the reality is that my brain is far more fried now than it was when I started with therapist-take-one two years ago. Bad therapists aren't just unhelpful, they DO HARM. I don't know how to keep on keeping on. I simply do not know how.