It actually means a huge amount that you are bewildered by my bewilderment also @Phoenix_Rising. I know you 'see' most of what is going on here on the forum and are very discerning - so the fact that you are bewildered also really does mean a huge amount to me 

You are totally correct in suspecting my feelings are similar to how you are feeling about the weekends little turtle. I also understand how deflating it is when you ask for help/clarification and feel so totally let down by the response (or lack of...) Alot of my muddle could have been avoided if my request for help had been answered - and Yes, I felt very let down. This is also part of the reason I don't feel like being here now. irl I often feel 'forgotten', ignored or 'pushed aside' - some of my own making as I will always 'let others go first' or 'postpone' something if others are 'busy' - but what this does is allow those people to think that it is ok the next time to presume I will be ok with doing the same - that then leads to me eventually not even bothering to speak up or ask for anything - I don't feel I matter enough anyway. Sorry! gone off on a tangent there 

I super like you too little turtle and I super like just YOU. You don't need to 'try' to be anything different from what you are - YOU are YOU and trying to change anything about you would only project a false you that you could not sustain anyway. It is not about being someone that 'fits' with the conventional 'normality' society seems to embrace - it should be about 'society' recognising and accepting all differences and not only embracing but celebrating that everyone IS different and is valued because of it, not despite it. Instead of trying to 'change' people and make them 'fit' into a box - how about we 'change' the box - the ability for people to gain a much better understanding of people such as yourself (an Aspie Sea Turtle lol) would then be so much easier and bring about so much more postive conversations and actions - a reality that I would love to see.