Let's see @Phoenix_Rising... If my recollection is correct (and I know it is lol) I helped you to build the underwater cave - AND added our private/quiet rooms off the side of the cave - AND was one of the first to be given instructions to sharp turn left and dive deep! So I would say I am TOTALLY fine taking up residence in the underwater cave with you little turtle  For goodness sake little turtle - you put up with me teasing you with the occasional  lol - you come into TOR or struggle thread and actually 'touch' me (which I still find so selfless of you knowing how hard that is) when I don't know what else to do, you even let me sit on your nose every now and then without 'telling me off' too much - so I think any disrespect or offence is probably much more in the majority from me NOT you LOL

I am definitely not in a place that I can read for myself atm so reading along with you and CB (and whoever else is doing the same) is about all I can offer. I know the next couple of weeks for me are going to get even worse - there is nothing I can do to change that as I come off one med and onto another. I am already feeling the physical effects full-on and we do not know how I will react to the new med (completely different to any I have had so far) - plus hospital tomorrow - and I am still in a huge muddle on here (still don't get it!!!). Emotionally I am completely broken and if I could end it all right now I would but I am going to try to hold on until after tomorrow and see if there is an answer to my stomach pain. The thought of hospital is so terrifying that I have completely 'shut-down' my emotions around that for now - has been too much to handle. I hope it stays this way because I know I cannot start feeling that level of fear again without there being serious consequences.

I do have very strong opinions about the difference between attention-seeking behaviour and wanting/needing validation but I may leave that for another time!

Post when you like on your adventure little turtle - I am sure there are alot of people following that would love to hear your summaries and thoughts anytime