I so badly wish someone was there for you too little turtle  Someone for you to lean on (without touching), to talk to (without speaking), and to soften the ground if you fall (lots of pillows and teddies mandatory). I know it is no consolation but I am here with you in cyber world - out of the underwater cave and tent fort - and sitting on my rock stack looking over the ocean for you @Phoenix_Rising I am not leaving until you say it is ok to 'go back into hiding'