@Phoenix_Rising I have been working on something all morning for you but doesn't seem appropriate now. I am so, so sorry little turtle - I have no words for you - just feel your heartache. I am staying on my rock stack and not leaving until you tell me it is ok to do so - so when you peep out from under your shell you will see a little flutterby nearby - one who is thinking of you and hoping that you do not feel alone.
(would insert lots of these
here now if I didn't know how much you don't like them)