I don't know what this has triggered @Phoenix_Rising but I am understanding what the consequences of it are for you right now and I am very much hearing how shattered you are feeling and how close to being done you are. I am feeling scared right now and I am guessing that is because I am picking up on what must be the teensiest tiniest bit of how scared you feel.

I am here and I am not going anywhere anytime soon and I don't plan on going anywhere anytime soon. I will sit here with you and ride this out with you as often as it is helpful for you.