@Zoe7 Yep, definitely a face-palm moment! 

@CheerBear I am super glad that you are the same you even though I can't feel any connection to anyone or anything. I ended up sleeping in your pocket given that it was clearly much cooler at your house than at mine. 

I am seeing TTT on Thursday next week. I saw my GP this morning, thus ending my eleven days of no human contact. The funny thing is, between now and seeing TTT in nine days, the only human contact I will have is one phone call, so really, the difference between the past eleven days and the next nine days isn't exactly a lot. 

Giggle, I'm not sure if pinning pics on Pinterest counts as writing the DT stuff.  I don't know yet whether I will do all three of the "how" skills in one post. I will write the whole lot up and then see if it is too much for one post. So in theory (barring buses) it will be DT time in 2-3 weeks. 

Oh you asked about the mega med. Yeah it works super well...so well, it scares me. I was talking to my GP this morning about how terrified I am of developing a drug dependency. She assured me that the pharmacist was being a little melodramatic and that this medication isn't really any more scary in terms of dependency than the one I've used for a bazillion years. Thus the plan is that I will commit to using it again for the next 3-5 nights to try and get my sleep back into a good rhythem. 

My GP is so funny. When I saw her before Christmas and we were talking about the medication, she told me to "just experiment with it." I was like "so...the GP who forged my signature on a document is now telling me to experiment with the highly addictive drug she just prescribed me....right...". 

I super like her and I am so very very grateful for her. I have never had this much contact with a GP before in my life and there's no way I could have got through the past two years without her. Two years...can you believe it is TWO YEARS since therapist-take-one dumped me? Two years since that, and two-and-a-half years since I left Fred...and twnety-one years since I saw my first therapist. 

I feel so utterly hopeless and so very VERY tired of the attitude of "just get through today." I don't WANT to just get through the day, I want to HEAL. What is the point of getting through one day, only to have to get through the next - day after day, week after week, month after month and year after year. I am SO OVER the whole "just distract" thing. Why is it that most mental health professionals want to teach coping skills rather than helping people to actually HEAL!!!!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr 

I am super grateful to have found TTT because I get the sense that she is interested in helping people heal. The only problem now is that my soul died two days before I had my first appointment with her, so I'm really not sure that there is anything left to heal now. Take twenty-one years to find a helpful therapist, have a catastrophic soul-obliviating event occur two days before you see her. Yep, that pretty much sums up my life right there.