I feel really humbled that you mentioned me as one of the reasons you are still here @Former-Member 

I do not want you to 'not be on here' as you are pretty special to me and I would miss you a lot.

I do understand completely how you are feeling that things here are 'shaky' but like little turtle I know that there is alot of work being done 'behind the scenes' to unshake the shakiness. I also know this doesn't help you (or I to a great extent) in the present - those feelings just don't go away because 'stuff' is being done to resolve some of those issues. This does however all take time and I do have a little faith in those that are dealing with all this that there will eventually be changes made that will enable this space to be safer for all in the future. This - as you can probably imagine - is not easy for me to put my faith in but I do have faith in the people dealing with it all - and that is pretty huge for me - especially with all I have been through of late! Nothing can change what has happened but there is alot that can be learned from it and hopefully processes/procedures put into place to ensure such things will not happen again.

I hope that my belief in all this can give you a little more faith also that things can get better on here @Former-Member because we all deserve support and we all deserve that in a safe place