Hi in the ocean 🙂

I got lots of feels reading through here this morning. It's so great to see you @Former-Member, especially given that I understand it's hard for you to be here. Ditto to that with you @Zoe7.

I'm so sorry to hear you are getting what sound like those horrible "you do not matter" and "you are not worth it/as much/anything" messages that do damage. Too many people here have experienced those ones 🙁 I hear you also and like @Phoenix_Rising it comes from a place of having experienced it, also. I've been sitting on my "annoy bookish by tagging her to see how she is going" fingers (not well sometimes as you may have seen 😉) but I often find myself thinking of you, wondering how you're going, and wishing things were different as I have a feeling how you're going is not-so-good.

I've been thinking a bit about the actions speaking louder than words thing, which I agree with, but how it felt to me like we don't have much more than words here sometimes. I don't know about that so much now. We have actions (and I see them all the time) that say we will ride alongside each other through the ups and downs and rounds and rounds, and step in to big feeling puddles and giant waves with each other. And actions that say that people are worth hearing, and it's worth it to stick around so they can be heard. We have actions that say it's ok to come and go, make oopsies, be messy, vent, talk lots or not talk at all, and be hurt, scared, different, the same etc. All those actions happen because we matter and we're worth it. You matter and you are worth it.

(None of that can change or undo the other damaging messages, which isn't what I am trying to do above, but for me I would be in a lot more trouble without messages that counter those ones.)

I think you're great because you're you @Former-Member, and I'm sorry the world isn't as kind to you as it should be 💚

P.S.- I think we could add a cloning machine to the list of things to get when we find eleventy billion dollars and/or a wand (that cloning thing me feel so nice inside thank you - I just imagine a heap of CB's wandering around wondering where we are, what day it is, and what we're doing 😆). 🦄🦄🐐 (serious laugh at action unicorn goat)

P.P.S - It's TTT eve now @Phoenix_Rising. It's still more than two hands in hours but it's only one sleep.

Sending my biggest hoping there's good for all today.