Good evening on the ocean, super big thank you for dropping by. 

I am still very much running on empty and I'm afraid I don't have a lot to give in Forum Land at the moment. I'm super hoping that this will change soon, but at the moment it is what it is. 

I am super enjoying my change the world adventure, but the wrongness of the wrong continues to spread its darkness across my mind, my body, and my soul. I really can't see right now how anything can bring light back into this darkness. I mean, I am changing the world. I have a voice in the space where I am right now, I am being heard here. And yet the darkness of that other muddle, that deeply deeply wrong muddle, overwhelms the good feelings around being heard here. That other muddle is just too reminiscent of the muddle of more than two decades ago. It is grossly, horribly, sickeningly, terrifyingly reminiscent. I do not matter, anybody can do anything to me, shhhhhhh don't tell. 

Plan B is a step closer. I am desperately hoping that once plan B is enacted, I will feel safer. Nothing in the world can ever erase the wrongness of the wrong. This will be another memory that will sit in my brain forever. Somebody did harm to me. When I tried to speak out about it, I was silenced because the reputation of an organisation and the wellbeing of the one who did harm were deemed to be of greater value than my wellbeing. What situation am I describing? The one of two decades ago or the one I am living through right now? If you can't tell, then that tells you there is a problem! 

I am Phoenix_Rising, but seriously, there are only so many times that even the Phoenix can rise again from the ashes!

Good night Forum Land. I'm not sure who is watching over the ocean right now, but thank you for doing so.