Hi nest,

@Phoenix_Rising thanks for calling by last night. You're an awesome not-friend. I am sorry your weekend was tricky and that you had brain mush 😔 The plumbing is "fixed" as in we have half of our tiny kitchen bench and cupboards missing until it gets fixed. Big sigh but whatever - in the grand scheme of things, it's not a thing. I am curious about tomorrow but guessing you would have/will share if you can and want to. My brain went into blanket burrito mode a little this weekend - yay for clever brains. I have a big reply to your crochet question sitting drafted and I made a photo tutorial for you which I hope I can post a bit later (once I edit it and make it all fancy). My PRN that's not a PRN at the moment has the side effect of insomnia which is so not helpful, but at least I seem to have more hours to play with yarn in the day this way 😉

@Former-Member oodles of these for you 💚💚💚 Please don't be sorry about posting in here bookish. Anyone can post anywhere and if crawling into a nest is where it feels most right, then please do that. I love that you can and have used this as maybe a bit of a landing spot. Your nest company, honesty, sharing, and heartfeltedness (I think I am making up words now) has given so many heart feels.

I'm so sorry things are tricky for you. I really am. I felt so sad to hear that you feel like connection is not for you. Connection feels like vulnerability for me which is so scary, but disconnection feels worse. Maybe it's different for you and I respect that, but you do deserve it. You do matter and you have so much worth. I get those are 'words' and that it's how it feels to you that is important, but I really hope you can, even in the tiniest way, believe it.

I often wonder how you're getting on and want to hear about it if you want to share. That won't change, regardless of how ninja mode you go in or for how long.

Doing changing the world stuff is slow and hard. As I think @Phoenix_Rising has mentioned before, I too believe that it's hard to see sometimes how much of a difference painful efforts at it have made. It can make it feel totally pointless to me, but somewhere deep inside I know it isn't. For what it it worth, you have added good to my little world, and that's changed it for the better.

I really hope things even feel a tiny better soon. You mean lots bookish.

And you also @Maggie. Sending you lots of these 💗 too and thinking of you often.

@Faith-and-Hope these because you're you 💕