@Owlunar 

I wrote this reply to you, but now i re-read your post and wasn't sure if I understood correctly: I thought you were concerned that you weren't welcome to share your bad experience at the pain clinic? Sorry if I misunderstood but this is how I felt when I thought you did and I was really grateful for your post (sure I'd be grateful for it anyway, but just in case I misunderstood):

Thanks so much for your post. I've been feeling really freaked out about this situation.

I've had so many of my posts suddenly deleted by moderators for talking about how rough things have been  - i'm so sorry that the post made you feel like you couldn't talk about your day or how hard things were, but thanks so much for speaking up about how this guidelines issue has made you feel.

It really hurts to feel alone and like it's only you who feels a certain way, makes me question reality and adds to my trauma.

I hope the moderators see reason and nobody has to feel censored for talking about what they are going through because of this stuff. I believe it really helps to be able to talk and what was all that stuff about breaking the silence again? Seems to me the more we are allowed to talk about how things are and figure out how we need them to change the better help there is out there.

Wishing, hoping things change soon and good sense and reason prevail.

In the mean time really hope thigns get better for you