Am Not Coping

[Former-Member]

Oh @Zoe7, that does sound lonely for you. But I think it's wise to choose who you tell, some people can be so cruel. I've learned over the years to accept relationships on their different levels. Even shallow relationships have their purpose. This is where these forums are good I guess, I'm glad you're here.

[STORMGRL101]

Oh wow it's beautiful thank you @Zoe7 💕🌷 I am going to bring my colouring book and pencils with me.

[Eden1919]

Hi everyone 

[Former-Member]

Hi @Eden1919, how's your night?
Hiya Stormgrl101, colourinbooks are gr8

[Eden1919]

@Former-Member I am not having a very good night at all but i am trying to keep distracted. 

[STORMGRL101]

Hello @Eden1919 😊

@Former-Member Yes, I have quite a few. My newest is a Pokemon one with all the characters. I haven't been colouring much lately but thought I'd better get into it again. 

[Zoe7]

@Eden1919

[Zoe7]

Hi @STORMGRL101 @Eden1919 @Former-Member

Sorry I got sidetracked with Eden's Cave Corner decorating. It might take a while to come up but I hope you like it Eden. You can add some more fluffy things in and I'm sure Bunny and Dog will love running around in there with you 

@Former-Member It can get very lonely but I have tended to be completely consumed by work for many, many years and really haven't had the energy (or desire) to 'socialise' anyway. I do prefer being on my own as that is one way I can be as safe as possible.

[Zoe7]

I've been holding on since I got home today but I am starting to fall. I know it is just me 'feeling sorry for myself' and getting angry that I am constantly being 'beaten' by my past but it still doesn't make me feel any better. It does become self-fulfilling when I feel like this - I get frustrated that I am here again and that it it so hard to get out of this - but the more I 'stress' about it the worse I seem to get. I will get through it - but along the way I will feel the pain - ride it out - want out! These are the times when living sucks and life feels like nothing but darkness. If only I could flick a switch and erase my past then maybe I could think of a future.

[Former-Member]

Hearing you @Zoe7 - sadly... hearing you all too well! you have a lot of insight into the whole cycle of it all... it does become self fulfilling 😞  Im glad you know that you'll get through it.. 

im not much use at the moemnt my brain is not working to write anything useful! AGH! sorry. just wanted you to know that i've read though, 

lj