Am Not Coping

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope @Eden1919 How are you both doing tonight?

[Eden1919]

@Zoe7 I am about to go and have my shower but I will probably come back on here for a little while after that so if you are still up i will see you then if not well it is already tomorrow lol. 

[Zoe7]

That is great that you are able to have your shower @Eden1919 I will probably still be up - these types of nights I don't sleep - maybe a miracle will happen and that will change 

[Zoe7]

@Eden1919 @Faith-and-Hope I'm going under here - can't stop crying and feeling really sick. Thankyou both for trying and keeping me going for so long tonight - now I have to find a way to get through the night myself. The pain meds aren't helping - might have had a little too much and they're making me feel sicker so I need to lay down until the nausea passes again and the pain eases a little. 

Love and hugs to you both 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hahaha .... love it @Zoe7 .... ❣️  It would be good for my skin too .... 😏

I'm okay.  Starting to sag tho .... so I might have an iPad-face moment sometime soon ....

I got a good lot of painting done today.  It has to be transported in another three weeks, so I have to get on with it.  I had a slow start.  I knew what I wanted to dump, but my heart wasn't in it .... just too heart-sore to engage with it for the first few days .... so had to push myself to get going or would have missed the time frame.      

Also got a good walk in.

[Faith-and-Hope]

@Zoe7 ..... 💚💕🦋

[Zoe7]

I am just so glad you have been painting @Faith-and-Hope I do wish I could see it  I feel like part of me is in it with all the little 'touches of Zoe' you have told me you have used. It's a lovely feeling to know I am thought of, especially at the moment when I am feeling so low and defeated.

I truly feel for you when you are 'fighting' your own battles and I do wish I could help you through it more. There is nothing as painful as a heart that is breaking - I hope that yours can remain strong and start to repair soon. I fear that mine is irrepairable now and it has nearly stopped. 

Goodluck with your competition - I know I will never know how you go but I am sure you will have produced something that you should be very proud of.

Keep being you - no matter what each day brings - because the you that I know is the most wonderful, amazing and compassionate person I have ever met.

Sending you my love and admiration always...

Zoe 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Well now I'm in tears from your beautiful words ..... 💗🌷💕

You have to keep trying @Zoe7 ..... because you are a beautiful person with so much creativity, compassion, humour, inspiration and courage .... and these things are worth so much.

Just rest as much as you can .... rest is healing ....

[Zoe7]

Tears upon tears here @Faith-and-Hope 

I don't want to let anyone down but I don't have the energy to keep trying - so what will be will be - whatever that may be!

I'm too tired and in too much pain to care right now. If I get through tonight we will see what tomorrow brings - but I feel completely and irrepairably broken right now.

[Faith-and-Hope]

I am helping to carry you @Zoe7 .... sending you healing prayers and holding you in the light .....

Just rest and breathe .....

Breathing with you ....,

💚🌷💕🤗💜🐬💐😘❣️