My Hospital Stay

[oceangirl]

Hi @utopia

I did notice you where back in hospital yesterday, I am sorry to hear that. I am hoping you are getting the help you deserve. I have been away and have been unwell sick I returned from overseas but feeling better since yesterday. What will be your treatment plan moving forward? Keep your chin up...

[soul]

Thinking of you @utopia Hoping you're doing okay at the very least.

[Former-Member]

Hi @utopia - sorry you're on the emotional roller coaster... that can happen when meds are adjusting. It takes time but everything will settle down I'm sure. At least you are getting some time for art and rest. Is this a new hospital or the one you were at previously? Just take the time to get your head in a good place and make the most of the groups and staff. You're there to get better. Take good care.

[utopia]

@oceangirl. Sorry to hear you have been unwell.
My psychiatrist here is trying to get my anti depressants to the right dose.
He doesn't believe I have reactive depression. He believes I have 'regular' depression - that has been made worse from the workplace injury. He feels I still have PTSD symptoms. Just have to get the AD right and then continue working with my psychologist.

[utopia]

@soul. Didn't see the picture last night. Was slow to come through. This Cocky of yours is more talented than I am. Lol.
@Former-Member. I was at this hospital last year. And again about a month ir two ago. The food is horrible - but it's the better hospital - re: staff and programs.

[oceangirl]

Hi again @utopia

I am feeling much better- I had hay fever,sinus and migraine...

It could be a combination of things happening - my depression (major depression) , I believe I had a double dose of depression (dysthymia and major depression). You can have a combination of depressions co-occuring. The dysthymia made a lot of sense to me.

I can't rememeber allyou physical conditions but that would have affect on your mental health too, they do say if you can improve your physical health it has positive affect on your mental health.

It is a bit of a juggling act to get medication right and also a good discharge plan to move you forward.

[utopia]

Woke up to a new day. Was looking forward to going to a certain 'group' today. I get there and they changed it from what was on the calendar. Already did that one.
Nurse tells me I need to pack - as I'm changing wards/units. They needed my double room and were putting me in a single room - in the over 65 ward!
So here I am in my 'new room' - in the oldies unit. And I don't have a proper bed. I have a hospital bed. You know the ones you can pull up the sides. They are all single beds here - but they are large King Singles. Which is good for my fat body. This one is tiny. If I roll over - I'll probably roll out of bed.
The bathroom hasn't been prepared for me. There is a shower chair and a toilet chair in there. I'll have to move them. But don't want to touch them.
My old room was north facing - warm sun as I sat by the window. This one is south facing - so feels colder. But the view is definitely nicer. Deciduous tree outside my window. May be able to see birds.
Was crying because I didn't want to be in this unit. Thought I'd get a leave pass - so I could go and have a smoke (smokers courtyard shut). But no. I'm not allowed leave now. I haveto see the ppsychiatrist and see if he will approve my leave again. Not happy.
Yesterday when I was in a bad way - depression - I said to my nurse - ban my leave today - because I don't feel safe to go outside (leave the building). Thought I was doing the right thing. Thought I was being responsible for my health by saying yesterday that I didn't feel safe. Thought I could be honest and let the staff know - when my mood and urge to drink clashed. It's come back to bite me on the bum.
30 minutes til smoko courtyard is open.

[soul]

Hmmm @utopia - does this mean it will lose its five star rating? Lousy that you have been downgraded.

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜💕 @utopia ....

[utopia]

@soul - I have to stop grumbling. The room is nicer than my old one. Hot water and good water pressure. Doves asleep in the tree outside my window. Bed feels comfortable. Just narrow.
Spoke to my psychiatrist and he's reinstated my leave. I told him I'm honest with the nurses. But I need a back up when I'm feeling self destructive. So I want to be able to say. "I'm not feeling safe at this moment, can you cancel my leave". Not forever. Just til that moment passes.
Has been a better day than yesterday. Discussed my obsessive thoughts about my old friend & how they come up when I feel I need 'rescuing' or someone to look after me. So that's good that he knows that when I'm really low - my friend is often in my head (& that he's not imaginary. Lol.)