Good evening to everyone out on the ocean. My turtle whisperer was running late and then we had a slightly longer-than-usual session. I am superly duperly tired, but I will check in properly tomorrow. @CheerBear @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member.
@Former-Member who is watching the ocean tonight?
Night.
Good morning everybody out on the ocean,
I am feeling a little super gigantic lot like I've been squished by a bus. Everything is hard right now. I know that doesn't mean it will always be this hard, it just is right now. All my giant grief feelings around (P) are getting tangled up with giant grief feelings around the hopelessness of my situation career-wise, such that the grief is spilling out in unhelpful ways. My turtle whisperer and I talked about it a little bit yesterday, but not nearly as much as we really needed to because all our time is being consumed with the project of trying to find therapist-take-thirteen. We have someone in mind and the plan is that my turtle whisperer will speak with her first to pave the way. Yesterday we were going through all the stuff that therapist-take-thirteen needs to know in order to maximise the chances of success.
My turtle whisperer was talking about how amazingly muddled my muddle is. She was saying that when she offered to be my turtle whisperer she really had no idea how muddled the muddle was. This is a recurring theme in my world. Therapists hear my treatment goal of "I want to gain and sustain employment such that I'm not reliant on the DSP" and they think this is a nice easy goal and that I just need a little bit of CBT. And then the muddle starts to come out... 
It is so utterly crushing knowing that my turtle whisperer is one of those very VERY rare individauls who I know could actually help me with the muddle but that she can't work on the muddle with me because of the nature of the service through which I am seeing her. It is utterly utterly utterly crushing and I just hope with all my heart that the person we have targeted as therapist-take-thirteen will be as awesome as my turtle whisperer and (K).
Anyway, moving on...
@Former-Member I super love the idea of you travelling through the ocean in a cosy bubble-type vehicle lined with cushions and books. I wonder if @Zoe7 could make a picture of that when she is feeling well enough.
@Faith-and-Hope I would LOVE to be able to find a space where I could earn an income from writing. If I could get a job where I could sit at home and write, that would be AMAZING. However, as to where to find such a job, I do not know. 
From what I've heard, only about one in a bazillion people actually make a good income from blogging. The vast majority of people make nothing, and then most of the rest make a little bit as a sideline income. Knowing I have the academic qualifications of a "mental health professional" and yet due to my muddle will almost certainly never work in the field is utterly soul destroying.
@Zoe7 Awwwwww, smacked in the head with a love heart AGAIN! I really have to work harder at being disrespectful and offensive in order to try and avoid getting love hearts thrown at me. I mean gee, I tell you I don't love you or worry about you (which is disrespectful and offensive to you) and then I tell you that you are my second-favourite forumite (which is probably disrespectful and offensive to every single person in Forum Land aside from @CheerBear), and I STILL get smacked in the head with a love heart. Clearly I'm losing my touch! 
@CheerBear Ooooh were there any inappropriate giggles yesterday while you were with important doctor people? Was there any discussion of BMs??? You see, even though I was there with you, Dr Havetodo is the only individual in the pocket crew who has ears so the rest of us don't actually hear anything that is discussed in your tricky appointments.
@Former-Member Super big thank you for watching over the ocean last night. I was superly duperly struggling and your post made me giggle - specifically this bit: looking forward to the warmer daze ahead. Giggle. As nice as a warm daze seems, I'm thinking you may have meant warm DAYS.
Hmmmm...I was hoping to go for a ride in @NikNik's nutella jar this morning but she hasn't appeared. Are you around @Former-Member? Otherwise I'm going to have to hike all over Forum Land to conduct my cleansing ceremony, and given I'm a sea turtle and Forum Land is super big, that sounds like hard work. Doing a flyover in a nutella jar or on a flying island sounds much easier. 
Good morning @Former-Member @Former-Member and um...let me see, it's Wednesday, so according to my calculations I would also be saying good morning to @Former-Member. I super love routine - flexibility and change is way over-rated. 
@Phoenix_Rising I did warn you to duck little turtle LOL re:flying loveheart I promise that is my last one for this week lol
I would be more than happy to construct a cosy bubble-type vehicle lined with cushions and books for @Former-Member - just need a few days to work on it a little at a time (unless the impossible happens and I miraculously feel much better overnight 
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Okay little turtle - I have now arrived in DBT HQ - what is on the agenda for our meeting?
@Zoe7 I can't wait to see what you come up with for bookish.
So...the DBT meeting isn't about anything super important, just...how exactly do we do this entire adventure?
My thinking was that we would simply follow the manual. I mean, it basically tells you what should be done/taught in each week. I was thinking that we would do a little bit each week (i.e. not the entire "week" in a week - if you know what I mean!), but that over the space of 2-3 weeks (or however long it takes), we would cover the week's content. I am imagining that the "24 week" schedule will take around 12-18 months. Does any of this sound even remotely like what you guys had in mind @Zoe7 and @CheerBear?
I'm wondering if you are feeling overwhelmed because you are imagining a much shorter time frame @CheerBear??? I'm a turtle. I'm used to things taking a trillion years longer than they are "supposed" to. I'm wondering if you have maybe dived in as energizer bunny when your batteries were at full capacity and then as your batteries have worn down a bit, it has all started to look a little daunting???
I guess I have a dream that by the time we finish this project (however long it takes), we will have made the entire skills component of DBT available for free here forever more in Forum Land. Hence why I'm in no rush...but then, I am the turtle who took five years to complete her 1-year honours degree.
What do you guys think???