Hi, I'm new here and I have Borderline personality disorder. I've often found I really struggle to maintain relationships of any sort. I try so very hard and yet everyone always leaves. I just feel like I don't fit in anywhere or connect with anyone my age. I have issues reading tone when talking to people so I am constantly misinterpreting things or coming across as aloof and not quiet right. No one ever explains why they leave or why a connection couldn't be forged. I don't know what to do. I have a few friends but often find I'm the one always asking to hang out or always messaging first ect. So I don't have a lot of social inter and when I do I always seem to do the wrong thing or say the wrong thing or miss a cue. I don't understand out to improve, I don't even understand who I am. I've always connected better with animals and used to have beautiful pets but after my last one passed away I just can't bring myself to get anymore because it really destroyed me this last time. Without my pets I don't know who I am. I don't seem to be what humans like, I don't know how to be normal, how to fit and not feel so self concious of my entire identity. I've read people with bpd struggle with relationships and so I'm unsure if this means I should close myself off from humans. I have a job so I can go to that but maybe aside from work I should tuck away from the world. Be a little more invisible. That will be tough as I crave validation from others to feel a sense of worth but maybe it's time I close away from it all, wipe my social media footprint and fade away