Am Not Coping

[greenpea]

@Zoe7 that is a good question .... I just think I am getting better 🙂

[Snowie]

@Zoe7it has been something that both my psych and pdoc have spoken about for awhile now. My only fear is that if I do it and it doesn't help, what then. But I think that fear is something I just have to get my head around.

I know how much you struggle with the group part hon and sharing. It is super hard to do. I guess you have to weigh up your own health against DBT. Do what is best for you and what you can cope with. The last thing you need is to be pressured into doing something you don't feel ready for.

Evening @greenpea, how are you?

[Zoe7]

Well I cannot think of any better reason to celebrate then @greenpea 

Would you like a white or yellow daisy?

[greenpea]

Your are the artist @Zoe7 you know what would suit the peas colouring best 🙂

[Zoe7]

I have been told that it often takes 2 rounds of doing all the skills for it to really have much affect @Snowie - I don't necessarily think that is the case. Most of the other participants are already on their second round - so they not only know the material already but know each other quite well. It makes it doubly hard to 'fit in' when you are not only a newbie but also don't like groups. I do really want to get back to work in some way though so know this is the first step in my pdoc 'allowing' me to do that. She keeps 'moving' the possible return - it was initially 'see how we go' mid year and now it is next year. I am hoping for at least 3rd term but know it is more likely to be 4th term in a very minimal capacity. I know I can't do it right now but having something to aim for I believe would really help me right now.

[Zoe7]

@greenpea you choose lol 

[greenpea]

@Zoe7 You are a star Zoe7! Thanks I will let you know when the triangles of doom have gone 😛

[Snowie]

That would make it hard then @Zoe7 to fit in.

I know exactly what you mean about that line keeps moving. When I took time off it was meant to be a term. Almost a year later I don;t know when I will get back.

But I understand that this is a step in a possible return, in some form, to work. 

Aiming for something is a great thing 

[greenpea]

@Zoe7 they are both simply adorable!!!!!! Thank you 🙂

[Zoe7]

I have now been off work for 20 months @Snowie - and I thought it would only be a term too! I can't even remember any of last year - that was how hard it was  I left work on the Friday feeling so unwell I could hardly walk and by the time I saw the doctor on the Tuesday I couldn't walk - and was sent straight to hospital via an ambulance - then everything went downhill rather quickly! Every time I started to feel a little better I would fall even lower and that continued on for most of last year. It has taken more than 18 months just to get the meds right - and I had some really nasty side effects from some of them! Hopefully now that we seem to have the meds right we can also see some improvements - I really need that. I told my GP yesterday that I will definitely not survive another setback - I just do not have the strength to go through any of that again. I know that does not sound positive at all but I honestly cannot do any of that again.